Flirting with Realities

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

Tragedies of life are seductive,

They make us contemplate: Deductive;

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

Fate is a strange thing,

It makes our hearts ring;

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

I see a reality, will it manifest?

Maybe it will, if we are blessed;

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

Why this choice again!

Is this always my bane?

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

The ideas are fiery,

Will we unite, before expiry?

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

Not unlike the dichotomy of Janus,

We shall be apart like Gaia and Uranus;

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

Do I really have Her?

It's all such a blur;

I have Her but I don't,

I have Her but I won't,

I have Her...?